Do It Anyway

My life has changed so much these last 9 months it's difficult to properly articulate. I began this year knowing I wasn't the future father I wanted to be. In spite of desperately wanting to become a father I was not in a position to help that happen. I had to face the fact that at nearly 400lbs I wasn't necessarily an ideal prospect for some looking to place a child for adoption. That wasn't easy to face or admit but I did. I received the chance of a lifetime and started working with a trainer. I put up signs in my house to remind myself of what I was working for. Julie decided to join me in my weight loss goals and we began to eat healthier and follow a meal plan from my trainer. It turns out eating healthy and exercising work! No magic pills or miracle apparatus was used; just a decision to start taking advantage of life and a whole lot of sweat! You can see the difference in some of the pictures here in the blog. To over-simplify I've learned so much about myself and my own abilities. I've learned the magic in pushing myself beyond what I thought I could do. There is a power in deciding to keep going when we think our tank is empty. I feel like I'm becoming not just a good person, which I was before losing weight. I'm becoming the person God would have me be. It's exciting, intimidating, empowering, humbling, and all sorts of other things all at once. I'm learning to put long-term goals in front of short-term wants as the phrase, "do it anyway" has become my daily mantra. I'm not quite done with this transformational journey of mine but I'm over-the-moon happy with how far I've come so far. Life is better this way!

P.S. Julie has lost a bunch of weight too! Just look at that gorgeous wife of mine!!!

Ray